Wednesday, September 17, 2003
Wearing out..I didn't go to my physics class this morning. I tried to sleep in, which I haven't done in months. Missing the class today meant I missed turning in a large homework assignment, which I didn't even do. I couldn't sleep in though, because I woke up early and couldn't go back to sleep. I just laid in bed until it was too hot to stay. I might be too stressed out now. I'll admit it now. I've worked between 40 to 50 hours a week, even during school. I feel so tired all the time, but I can't go to sleep. I'm just in lingo and it's killing me inside, I can feel it now. I hate my classes. Every last one. Physics is every single day at 9:45 in the morning. When I'm in the class I understand everything, but when I try to do work on my own I get confused. Well, it's more like I don't know how to start. I try to make the problem more complicated than it is. Technical Writing is just a bullshit class. It tries to teach us how to write about technical aspects of things. I have to write papers about paper clips. It's all so very interesting. Macroeconomics is just boring. I have absolutely no interest in money. Sure, I enjoy making money and buying stuff, but I don't like money itself. Money corrupts people. It corrupted my family. That's all I will say on that. So I try to stay away from it as much as possible. I'd keep my money in a giant mattress if I could, but that's not the way the world works anymore. I don't work to make money, I don't even know why I work so hard anymore. Aviation Weather wouldn't be a bad class, but it's late at night, and everyone there seems so more advanced than me. My mom knows the directors of the program very well, so I've got a reputation to hold up, and it's destroying me. It wouldn't take me very long to get my license, but I hate that Commercail Aviation Company so much..they make me soo mad.
Working at Six Flags is getting old, and it's hard to do with school. Vinnie and Chris have now gone back to school, so it's going to be either me or Mike Shteyngarts in charge of the Thriller area. I honestly don't know who they will pick, but if it isn't me I'm going to turn in my two weeks immediately.
Working at Resnet is fun, like always. I think I am much better at it this year, I think I am better at talking to the users. I was too shy last year, intimidated maybe. They all seemed to know everything and I was sometimes too shy to ask for help. This year I've tried to be nice to all the new hires so they won't feel that way. I hope I'm not being overbearing, but that so rarely happens. We've had a very busy opening year. Completely different than last year, but maybe equally as busy. Whereas last year was filled with resnet software problems, this year all the problems seem to be viruses. I like the way Kent has dealt with them more than Akron. KSU actually calls the users when we disable their ports, and we try to help them over the phone. Akron just disables them and waits for the users to bitch about it. Our way is much longer and harder on us, but it is better for them, I think.
The only other free time I have is taken up by the KSU Anime club on Friday nights. We haven't done hardly any advertising and we are getting 60+ people each night. Samantha and Eric are doing a lot of work towards the club, and as secretary, I want to help them. I've been trying to subtlely tell them, but they haven't asked yet. I love going out to eat with everyone afterwards, a tradition started by Yash and me. It's become a regular part of the club, so I feel I have contributed. Everything will turn out ok.
I apologize for typos as it is very late, and I promise to update some more, as Jo has recently been posting way more than I have :D